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Lost Time

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Hello! Time has just flown by and one day has melted into another and before I knew it, a whole month has gone by. Has that happened to anyone else? Time seems to be lost to me. I feel like weeks of my like are missing. They are just gone. I hate  when that happens. Life has been busy and at the same time not. Does that make sense? A lot has happened since I last posted, and at the same time my days slipped by me as I continue to go through the motions while battling the Blahs.

Since my last post, I have celebrated my son’s 13th birthday, bought a new journal, had another go at a craft fair, and read some wonderful letters from pen pals. I even got a new pal, by the name of Spock. Yes, I am a Spock lover, as well as a lover of Leonard Nimoy.

My son had a wonderful 13th birthday and I had a house full of people and I am so proud of myself for not flipping out during the party. My house was packed with people and yes, the adults were vastly outnumbered by the kids. My wonderful neighbor was nice enough to make my son’s birthday cake just how my son wanted it. img_3765

Can you guess the theme of  the party? Yep! Video games and XBox. He had a great time and I survived without a freak out or melt down so it was a good day. The days leading up to the party were filled with anxiety and stress and yelling at my doctor to get my meds straight after a snafu with my insurance, but it was still a great day for my son and a victory for me. Does that sound silly? Any day without a meltdown feels like a victory to me.

I bought a new bullet journal and it is a fun one. I have not dove into it yet as I am still playing with bullet journaling. But this journal was just too cool to pass up. What does it look like? Let me show you…img_3814

IT’S GROOT!!! Isn’t it awesome?! I love it. Right now I am using a Girl Scout cookie journal that my daughter received for her cookie sales last year.

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It’s cute and I think is a good beginner bullet journal. My cousin gave me the idea to make a journal for my kids so I am giving it a go. I am having fun with it and playing with my colorful gel pens. Although, I do not know if the bright ones, like the florescent pink will last as it is already hard to see. But I thought it was a good idea to help me journal. I was journaling daily as something for myself but have been slacking on it lately, so I was given the idea to do it for them. That idea has given me a little extra push to write, so whatever works, right?

I have also received some wonderful letters in the mail. The last one I received was from the wonderful Julia from Julia’s creative year. She sent a fabulous bookmark with one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite books, “Alice in Wonderland.” She also sent a cute peacock, card and sticker. I have received other pen pal mail, but did not take photos. I love, Love, Love my pen pals. They are truly wonderful people and  I always seem to get a letter when I am down and blue. Thank you wonderful pen pals!

Since I home school my children, I thought I would give UniversalYums a try.  It was so much fun. Our first box was from Pakistan. I am trying to get my kids to have a more worldly view and since we can’t afford to travel I thought we would give this a try. Each month you get snacks from different countries with a book about the food and people and a hint as to the next box. Next would have been Belgium but I had to cancel it, being on a tight budget. I will pick it up again though as I think it’s a great idea and my kids had so much fun with it. The boxes aren’t very expensive, they are actually cheaper than I thought it would be. But right now, it’s not in the budget.

It’s a  pretty cool program though. Look at all the goodies! You can even choose the size box you get with different amounts of goodies to fit you budget. I highly recommend this to anyone wanting to try foods from different countries, you don’t even have to have kids. (And no, they did not sponsor me or pay me them. I just really like it.)

Okay, well that’s pretty much what I’ve been up to over the past month. Oh! I also gave a craft show another try, but didn’t do so well. I have been rather down in the dumps about my crafting and questioning whether or not to continue to make stuff. have not made a single thing in over a month. True, I’ve been a little busy but I’ve also spent a lot of time on my rump binge watching Hulu and Netflix. I haven’t watched so much TV in years! I hope I get over the blahs soon. I miss crafting but just can’t seem to get myself off my butt and do it. Hopefully I will just suck it, put my big girl pants on and get to work. Right now I am my own worst enemy. I gotta work on that. Okay, this is long enough. Until next time, have fun and enjoy life’s sweet moments.

 

 

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Opportunity Came Knocking

This past weekend I got a last minute opportunity to participate in a local marketplace event with lots of other crafters and I jumped on it. Although it was Labor Day weekend, it was far more successful than my last attempt at a craft show. This time I actually had sales and people liked my stuff which was the best part! I loved that people liked my things and that they at least took the time to look at it. The above picture is of my set up. I think it needs work, namely some height.  Still, I don’t think it’s too bad, especially since I got to he invite to do it 2 days before.  Not too shabby for a last minute deal. 

Anyway, I am thinking of doing again. The marketplace will occur every Saturday so I am considering making it a regular thing to see how it goes. At lest for a couple of weeks anyway.

Anyway, I think this was a huge success for me. As I have posted before, I have not been in the best mental shape. However, I decided to be brace nd face my fears and on a whim agreed to do the event. Thankfully, I was on an end spot and was able to breath as I am claustrophobic and the booths were close together. I faced my anxiety and fear of people and although I probably did not speak up as much as I should have I did my best to engage people and at least say “Hi.” Bot was that terrifying. But thankfully my kids were with me and steadied me. Yes, I think I will try to do it again. The thought of doing so fills me with anxiety but I am determined to suck it up. I am terrified that what if I sign up and have a freak out or something? But, even with these fears I have set my mind to doing it again if they have any available spots and facing those fears. Let’s just hope this last meds adjustment lasts a while. 

Okay, that’s it for now. Thank you all for your well wishes and words of encouragement during my last episode. Your kindness and support mean more than you will ever know. Take care and until next time, enjoy life’s sweet moments!❤️

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Working Through the Static

Hello out there! So I have been trying to keep busy and work through the Static in my head. I made these covered notepads for my Etsy store that I will have for sale in sets of 3. Aren’t they cute? So anyway, yeah there has been lots of noise and chatter in my head lately and I have been trying to find something to keep me busy and/or at least semi focused to drown out the noise. There has been so many voices lately, I don’t know which end is up. When people talk to me it’s like Static in my brain mixed with nails on a chalk board. Yeah, it’s been pretty frustrating. There is so much noise in my head I can’t stand it! So, needless to say I have been a tad bit irritable and on edge. I feel so bad, I’ve barking at those closest to me. 

So what do I do? I lock myself in my craft room of course. Well, I go to it and get to work and tune everyone and everything out as much as I can. Let me tell ya, it’s times like this it wish there was a door to my craft room and 4 solid walls. But it’s okay, I’m still grateful to have a craft room. While I was locked away in my craft room I made another stationery box and a bunch of covered notepads. I like how the stationery box came out.

Here are some more of the notepads.Did I share this cute little covered notepad?Why yes, I do love the ocean. Anyway, I got my meds adjusted on Monday and am going back in tomorrow to get them adjusted again. Oh the joy of it all 😒. I am trying to stay focused and positive through it all and remember to breathe, but it’s hard, I’m not going to lie. I’m not having a full blown episode thankfully, if I was I wouldn’t be able to write this, but I feel I might. I’m praying I don’t and for patience and for calm. Anyway, that’s where I am at today. It makes me sad that I have such a short fuse with everyone but I am hopeful that this will pass soon. I am trying to push through the madness and stay positive. Wish me luck. ❤️

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Making Something New

Hello! I’ve been a busy girl trying to find things to make with all the paper I have that I bought to make cards with. Since my cards aren’t selling on my Etsy store I was looking into ways to sell them as sets. Low-and-behold, I came across this idea. I do not know who originally came up with it but a big THANK YOU to whoever did. It’s genius! I came across it on youtube and there are a lot of versions of it. The video I watched was from  May May Made It Crafts . Anyway, I loved the idea.

The stationery box is filled with so much stuff. There are 6 greeting cards with envelopes, 6 3×3 note cards with matching envelopes, 6 gift tags, a memo book, matching pen and place for stamps. Take a look!img_3635img_3637

These are the 3×3 note cards with matching envelopes.

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A photo of all the goodies.

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These are the greeting/note cards that I made to go inside them. I had a lot of fun making this and I will be making more of them. I hope they sell well. Anyway, I know it’s not an original idea but I still had fun with it. I don’t know if there is much of a market for beach themed stationery but I was missing the beach terribly so I went for it.

I hope you are all having fun and getting crafty or doing something that makes you happy. I have still been dealing with the “Blah’s” but I am trying to work through them. Taking it minute by minute. The beach is my happy place so it worked for me to make a craft about the beach. Until next time, enjoy the little things and life’s sweet moments!

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Trying to get Crafty

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Hello, so I have been trying to be constructive with my energy and be creative. I have been a bit tense and frustrated lately but have been trying to get those feelings out in a positive way instead of biting someone’s head off or yelling at the kids. So..I made some little covered notebooks. I got the idea from Schell Fabian on youtube. I love her creations. Mine are of course different from hers, but I used her base design and measurements. The above pic is one of the ones I made, and the inside looks like this…img_3533.jpg

I put a pocket on the inside for receipts or whatever. I also made a couple more.

I really love the one with the cross. The gold one is very shiny and had a mirror effect to it. I’m not a gold person but I like how the balloon one came out different. Both of them have pockets on the inside as well. I put them up for sale in my Etsy shop. I sold the others that I had made previously. I am going to try to make some post it not covers next and maybe a couple of cards. I don’t know. I still have so many letters to respond to. Maybe I will set myself a goal of at least responding to one letter a day and creating one thing a day. Sounds reasonable right? For me, just thinking about is causing me anxiety. I also have the kids lessons to attend to and doctor appointments and all kinds of fun stuff to do in the day. We shall see. I’m going to try to do one letter, and and one craft a day and see what happens. Wish me luck! Hope you are all well and enjoy life’s sweet moments!

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Slacking on Snail Mail

Hello, so not only have I been slacking on my blog posts, I have been slacking on my snail mail. I feel so bad about it too! Look at all these letters I still have to respond to! To any of my pen pals that may be reading this, I apologize and will be working this coming week to respond to all the wonderful letters I’ve received.

I have received some truly wonderful letters and I treasure all of them. In my recent slump, I have not wanted to read them, which is terrible, I know. I have now read all of them and wish I would have read them when they came as they may have put me in better spirits. But, then again, I think that perhaps that is why I did not read them. In a way I was content in my misery if that makes sense. I think part of me wanted to stay a growly-gus.  But, I hope I am on the mend for now. I feel like I am headed for a manic phase so who knows what will happen then. Only time will tell. Anyway, check out some of the cool stuff I received in snail mail…

 

There was so much more, but these were for my favorite holidays, Christmas and Halloween. There were so many wonderful things. Sadly my kids like to open my mail and took out some of things that were sent and well, they all got mixed up and I don’t know who sent what. Kids, I tell ya. Haha. I think that is it for this post. Short and sweet. I have lots of letters to write and want to start before the kids wake up.  I hope you are all well and enjoy life’s sweet moments.

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The Madness Within

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Hello out there in blog-land. Long time, no post huh? Sorry. I’ve been a bit low and blue. I have been feeling like this picture I drew ages ago. Yes, this picture is a bit of a self portrait. About 17 years ago I was in therapy and was instructed to draw how I saw myself and this is what I came up with. It’s not very good and it is the last thing I’ve drawn until the recent playing around in my art journal, but I absolutely love it. It is how I have felt so many times in my life and still do sometimes, like recently.

Struggling with being bipolar and schizophrenic is such just that, a struggle. There are so many parts to me and emotions running around inside me all at once. With that mix of emotions I feel fragile, sometimes shattered, and other times as hard as a brick wall. Most of the time I feel like these all at once. I know there are those out of you out there that can relate. I feel like I’m being torn into a million pieces sometimes. But, I am still here and today is a new day.

I haven’t posted in a month! Wow! That’s a long time! I’ve just been going through the motions for the past month and one day has been rolling into the next. But still, I get up and get up and face the day even when I don’t want to. That is so hard to do!

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My meds were recently adjusted and let me tell you, there were a few days that were not pretty and included a week of me calling my doctor and yelling and screaming until things could get straightened out. Sometimes I get overcome with anger and it switches on in an instant from out of nowhere. Then the next thing I know I am hearing voices from my fan. Ok, I tell myself to breathe and the fan is not really trying to talk to me. Then it’s, “Oh, hello Mr. Anxiety, I’ve been expecting you,  I was wondering when you were going to show up,” and “Ah, hello Mr. Paranoia, there you are. Now it’s a party!”  Oh, don’t even get me started on spending. I have been binge shopping and so reckless with money. I have buyers remorse only to go out the next day and spend more money I don’t have. Oy! No, it hasn’t been pretty this past month.

IMG_0425But, you know what? I’m still here and still kickin’. I am trying to force myself to be positive about at least one thing every day and I am trying to get my creative juices flowing again. I am trying to be positive.

I guess my point to all this is that if any of you reading this is going through something similar or dealing with depression, I just want to say, you can get through it. I know it’s hard, believe me I do, but you can get through it. Just as I am getting through it. If you have to take it second by second and breath by breath. I know that is what I have been doing. And eventually the seconds and breaths come easier and soon you aren’t even thinking about them. The seconds becomes minutes before you know it. I am now able to take it day by day. Not all my days are good, and not all my minutes in those days are good either, but you know what, that’s okay. Not everyone has perfect days and I am picking myself up when I fall and starting over, second by second. I know it’s hard. But you can do it! Just breathe. I know I am not a professional, and you don’t have to take what I say to heart. I just want you to know you are not alone and you can make it through. You are stronger than you think.

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Playing with My Art Journal

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Hello out there in blog-land. How was your weekend? Mine was full of playing in my art journal with my water color pencils, and new Canson multi-media paper and water brushes. I made the cute little picture of the bear trying to get the honey. I was thinking I might put it on a card but the paper warped a lot so I have to try to flatten it first.img_3466

I also did a little sketching. I have not sketched anything in over 20 years and it isn’t very good but I had fun playing around. I sketched what I saw looking out my window while sitting at my desk. I exaggerated the big tree as the one I was looking at is just a sapling. This is what I came up with.

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It’s basic and elementary but like I said I had fun playing with my water color pencils and trying to figure out how they work.  I also played around with this one…img_3463

In this one I wanted to try to practice making a scene and playing with shadows which I am not very good at, as you can see since the shadows are all over the place. It came out kind of terrible but  I had fun stamping everywhere and coloring. It’s fun to play! Sometimes you just gotta mess around and have fun!img_3464

I even made the first card I have made in months! Yay me! Sorry, but I was so proud of myself for coming up with a card and actually putting it together. I have been so discouraged about card making lately I have not made any other than the Father’s Day wallet card. So I was happy that I finally followed through and sucked it up and made a card.

Anyway, that is enough rambling for now. That’s all I have come up with so far but I am looking forward to seeing what I come up with next.

Have a great week and enjoy life’s sweet moments!

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Recognition Award Time!

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Recently, I was recognized by the wonderful Julia from Julia’s Creative Year for the Blogger Recognition Award. Thank you very much Julia! I love reading Julia’s blog, not only because she is my pen pal, but because she inspires me to get off my butt and create something, or at least think about creating something. Julia’s blog is about her year to be creative and expand her creativity. I love to see what she comes up and be inspired to try new things. So thank you very much Julia!

I have never been nominated for anything before so it felt good to be mentioned in her post. So part of the rules for this award is to explain how my blog started and give 2 pieces of advice. So here it goes…

I started this blog as a way to express myself and to vent. It was just something I wanted to do as a way of self expression that was different from just journaling. It wasn’t something that I went into thinking I’m going to have tons of followers and make lots of money or anything like that. I just wanted to share and started it more as a therapeutic tool than anything.

As for advice for other bloggers or future bloggers, well, I’m not sure I’m one to give it, especially since I don’t have tons of followers (which is totally okay), but here it is. First, I’d say, blog for yourself and not with the intention of fame and millions of followers. Blog because it is something that you want to do for you.

Second, just have fun with it! I found that the more pressure I put on myself to have a certain amount of blog posts or something like that the more stressed out I become and the less I want to do it. I do not have a regular schedule for posts. I post when inspired and find I have more fun that way and in turn get more inspired to find things to post about. I just have fun with it.

Okay, so now it’s time to explain the rules and move on to my nominees…

The Rules are:

Thank the blogger who nominated you

Write a post to show your award

Give a brief summary of how your blog started and give 2 pieces of blogging advice

Nominate up to 15 bloggers for this award

Comment on each blog to let them know you nominated them and provide a link to your post announcing their award nomination

I follow several blogs and enjoy all of them. They are uplifting and inspirational and I would love to share all of them but many do not want nominations. With that being said, if any of the people I nominated do not want to be recognized I apologize.

My nominations are for…

The stitchingranny at the Stitchery Nook. I love Helen’s work and her blog and see what she comes up with.

Shazza is a fun blog to read because I love seeing her adventures and her beautiful photos. Check Sharon’s blog out at Sunshine and Celandines .

Jo-Jo’s Spot is another blog I love to read and get artistic inspiration from. I love to see her artistic endeavors and her challenges.

Loucke from The Year of Letters is fun because I share her love of snail mail and letter writing and receiving. I love seeing her push herself to achieve her goal of writing the entire year.

Gwendolyn from Desperate Housewife Craft is another one I like to follow because she is another homemaker adjusting to homemaking and I love seeing her crafts and her creativity and her adventures.

Tammy from Crafty Boutique by Tam is another blog I love to follow because I like to see her journey as she grows her Etsy business which is something that I am trying to do as well. She inspires me to keep trying and not give up.

Okay, this is a plenty long post and I apologize. There are so many other fabulous bloggers out there and I wish I can mention them all. Thank you again Julia for the nomination and thank you to those that read my blog. I feel so thankful that you do.

Have a great week and enjoy life’s sweet moments!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Friend Mail Friday…with a Squirrel!

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This was a quiet week for friend mail. I was beginning to thing I wouldn’t get any at all but low and behold, yesterday I received some. In it was this amazing and wonderful and adorable Squirrel from my friend Julia from Julia’s Creative Year . Isn’t he just too cute?! Thank you so much Julia. He has a special place on my desk. I LOVE IT! I  also received this wonderful reminder to “Notice the blessings” which is something I have been neglecting to do. I’ve been rather down lately, or something. It’s not necessarily down, I’ve just been feeling blank. I don’t know. But this beautiful little card was what I needed, so another big THANK YOU JULIA!img_3449.jpg

Okay, back to the mail. I also received a couple of post cards and other letters. I love the fairy post card from my friend in Michigan and the Cars one full of Mater quotes. My favorite is, “Ain’t no need to watch where I’m goin’; just need to know where I been.”

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Lastly, I received some nice little stickers for my planner and some ginger tea…which I am looking forward to trying. img_3450

Anyway, that is my little mail share this week. I sent out a lot of letters this week but did not take photos of them since they were not decorated or anything fancy. All the good stuff was on the inside =D.

Have a good day and enjoy life’s sweet moments!